TODAY IS JUST A WEIRD DAY

OKAY I HAVE BEEN IN A CRAPPY MOOD ALL DAY AND I AM TRYING TO LET IT GO. BUT I WAS HANGING OUT WITH OLIVIA THIS MORNING AND MY NEIGHBOR KNOCKS ON THE DOOR TO ASK ME IF MY HUSBAND COULD TAKE HER KID TO SCHOOL EVERYDAY BECAUSE SHE HEARD THAT HE WAS TAKING HIS NEICES AND NEPHEW TO SCHOOL EVERYDAY TOO. IS THIS LADY CRAZY. MY CAR WOULD BLOW UP IF I ALLOWED THIS TO HAPPEN TOO.

santa clause

I’m sitting here watching cartoons with Olivia while she is eating breakfast. She woke up today earlier than normal. She will probably take an early nap and I might go down with her. She went to bed late and I am tired today. She is supposed to go to story time but she hates going and I am too tired to fight with her. She won’t get down and play with the other kids. And when they play music she has no interest in getting down and dancing. And if I put her down she starts crying and whining. So I don’t feel like fighting with her by getting her ready and then fighting with her at story time. We have clashing personalities so that’s what we do most of the time. The day always starts off normal and then for some reason she tries all day to piss me off. Donny thinks it’s funny because he is a witness to her efforts in making me mad. She has his personality so they are BFF’s. I am hoping it gets better but she is so stubborn I have a feeling she is going to be a horrible teenager. I hope I am wrong, she just needs to be in a lot of activities. I am anticipating the when she can go to dance class. I am going to put her in tumbling so she can release some of her energy in a positive atmosphere. She has more energy than I can handle. And since it’s too cold for her to go outside she watches too much TV. I want to get her the “Your baby can Read” learning system for Christmas.
We tell her everyday that Christmas is coming and Santa is going to bring her presents. She tells us daily new items that she wants Santa Clause to buy her. This morning she told me she wants a monkey shirt like my shirt. She also told me she wants new babies and lots of toys. And she asks me everyday; “Mommy where’s Christmas go”? I wonder if she will go insane when she takes her pictures with Santa this year. We are going to take her to see Santa next week. Well this is really boring so I’m going to go hopefully I don’t fall asleep.

christmas jeans

I’M JUST SITTING HERE WATCHING THE REAL HOUSEWIVES OF ORANGE COUNTY, EATING POPCORN AND DRINKING SOME COKE. I’M NOT EATING ANYMORE DIET CRAP AND I AM OFF WEIGHT WATCHERS. I’VE WORKED SO HARD TO GET DOWN TO MY OLD SELF AGAIN SO I FEEL LIKE I CAN EAT NORMAL AGAIN. THE ONLY THING I’VE CHANGED IS I EAT MORE AND NOT SKIP MEALS. I JUST EAT SMALLER PORTIONS. I WORK OUT SO HARD I DESERVE TO EAT BAD SOMETIMES. PLUS IT’S FUN EATING ICECREAM WITH OLIVIA OR SOME COOKIES. I AM AT A POINT IN MY LIFE WHRE I’IM INVESTING MORE TIME IN MYSELF. WHEN OLIVIA GOES TO BED I MAKE SURE I PAMPER MESELF A LITTLE. IT’S DEFINITELY MAKE ME A BETTER MOTHER. I AM READY TO GO BACK TO WORK BUT I THINK IT’S TIME FOR ANOTHER BABY. DONNY AND I ARGUE ABOUT THIS ALL THE TIME. I JUST THINK IT SHOULD BE MORE OF MY DECISION THAN HIS. BEFORE WE GOT MARRIED AND WE HAD “THE TALK” WE AGREED ON HAVING TWO CHILDREN. AND I AM VERY BOTHERED THAT HE’S CHANGED HIS MIND. SO IT’S DEFINITELY NOW OR AND NOT LATER. I CAN FINALLY FIT BACK INTO ALL OF MY OLD CUTE CLOTHES. BEFORE WE GOT MARRIED I WAS MAKING A LOT OF MONEY AND I SPENT IT ON CLOTHES. SO I WAS DETERMIND TO GET RID OF THE BABY FAT AND LOOK GREAT AGAIN. MAN IT FEEL SO GOOD TO PICK SOMETHING OUT OF THE CLOSET AND WEAR ALMOST EVERYTHING. I STILL HAVE ONE PAIR OF SKINNY JEANS THAT ARE TIGHT IN THE BOOTY. AND THERE ARE ONE PAIR OF GOAL JEANS THAT I HAVE. ONE DAY I WAS IN THE DANCE ROOM WHEN I WAS IN COLLEGE AND SOMEHOW THESE VERY TINY JEANS WOUND UP IN MY GYM BAG. SO OF COURSE I TRIED THEM ON TO SEE IF I COULD FIT THEM. AND THEY WERE TIGHT IN THE BOOTY… I HAVE I BIG BOOTY. WELL I AM GOING TO WEAR THEM ON CHRISTMAS. AND THEY WILL LOOK AND FEEL GOOD. I WILL POST PICTURES OF THEM. I WORKOUT SO MUCH. IT’S CRAZY SOMETIMES. AND THERE ARE SOME DAYS WHERE I DRED IT. BUT I DO IT ANYWAY. AND I SWEAT LIKE A PIG SO WHEN I AM FINISHED I FEEL LIKE SUPERWOMEN. I KNOW I PISS MY NEIGHBORS OFF BECAUSE I WORKOUT AT 2 AND 3 IN THE MORNING. I HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE. I DON’T HAVE A MEMBERSHIP BECAUSE WE ARE SO BROKE. AND I CAN’T GO TO DANCE CLASS RIGHT NOW SO I AM DOING IT ON MY OWN. I DO MY ZUMBA ROUTINE WHICH LASTS FOR AN HOUR. AND THEN I DO THE SLIM IN 6 DVD. MY SISTER RHONDA GAVE IT TO ME AND IT WORKS LIKE MAGIC. IT’S SUPPOSED TO SLIM YOUR THIGHS AND MAKE YOU LEAN. WHEN I GAINED WEIGHT FROM MY PREGNANCY I GAINED MOST OF IT MY THIGHS AND BOOTY AND THEY WERE BIG ENOUGH BEFORE I GOT PREGNANT. SO I AM JUST TONING IT UP FOR THE MOST PART NOW. MY STOMACH NEEDS SOME ATTENTION TOO. THANK GOD I DIDN’T GET STRETCH MARKS ON MY BELLY…GOD WAS DEFINITELY SHED HIS GRACE ON ME IN THAT DEPARTMENT. I WOULD LIKE TO GO TO THE BEACH NEXT SUMMER A LOT WITH OLIVIA AND NOT FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO COVER THINGS UP. SO THOSE ARE MY SHALLOW GOALS. MY SISTER RHONDA, MY COUSIN NIKKI AND I ARE BIG SEX AND THE CITY FANS SO WE HAVE THIS THING WE SAY… SEX AND THE CITY THIS AND SEX AND THE CITY THAT. I HOPE THIS DOES NOT MAKE ME SOUND SHALLOW BUT IT’S A GOAL TO LOOK FABULOUS MOST OF THE TIME. IT’S BECAUSE I HAVE THOSE DAYS WHEN I DON’T GET TO TAKE A SHOWER UNTIL 6PM BECAUSE I AM WORKING OUT DURING OLIVIA’S NAP TIME. A GOOD DAY FOR ME IS WHEN I GET TWO WORKOUTS IN A DAY. WHEN OLIVIA IS TAKING A NAP AND WHEN SHE GOES TO BED. I WANT TO LOOK LIKE MY HUBBY’S GIRLFRIEND SO HE WON’T GO OUT AND GET ONE. :o) MY SISTER RHONDA HATES IT WHEN I SAY THAT. ALRIGHT I GOTTA WORKOUT. WISH ME LUCK TO GET INTO MY “CHRISTMAS JEANS”

IS HAVING FUN FUN FUN!!!

I JUST CAME BY TO REATE A SMALL POST. I AM IN VIRGINIA BEACH FOR A LITTLE VACA. I AM HAVING A BLAST AND OLIVIA IS HAVING SO MUCH FUN PLAYING IN THE SAND. WE COLLECTED SHELLS, PLAYED IN THE SAND, PUT OUT FEET IN THE OCEAN, AND PLAYED ON THIS CUTE PLAYGROUND ON THE BEACH. WE ARE HAVING SO MUCH FUN AND I AM HAVING A BLAST.

have not been here in a while

i have not written in a long time. probably because i don't have anything positive to say lately. i am annoyed by alot of things that i can't control in my life that i just can't write about. the only good thing i guess is that my family is healthy and i love them alot. and the fact that i am losing weight... that is very fun. i tried on all my jeans and i can finally fit into alot of them again. i have alot of nice clothes and i refuse to buy anymore because i would like to wear all of the older ones before i got pregnant. so that is that. i have been doing weight watchers and i am successful with it. i won't do any jumping for joy until my clothes fit me perfectly again. olivia just had a birthday party and my sister saw me and made a comment on me losing weight. she asked me if i was starving myself. that made me happy that someone else noticed. i am working so hard at it too. i am eating right and trying my damnest to workout. i was walking alot and now that it's cold i have to stay in. because it's not good for olivia to be out in the cold everyday. so i am looking into finding a new workout routine. my hubby is gone with the car all of the time and since we only have one car i don't get to workout as much. i was walking at the mall everyday when donny was working. and when got laid off it was cut in half because he wanted to join me in alot of activities so i didn't have that time to myself... which has made me one bitchy lady. now he takes his nieces and nephew to and from school everyday so my workout routine went down the damn toilet. sometimes when he gets home i still go to the mall but our funds don't allow me to do it everyday. so that is why i started walking all over like 3 to 4 miles a day. now that is cold i am going to workout twice a day and eat very little. man i am determined to get into all of my clothes and i am almost there. i don't think that i am fat i was just in great shape from dancing and working out all of the time. man i miss those days. i would go to dance class all of the time and went to the gym to do aerobics. wow... i was obsessed by the way i looked. and i am still like that. i am not happy on the inside unless i look good from the outside. and that may sound awful but who cares. who really feels good about themselves walking around looking like crap all day everyday. and the fact that i am a wife and a mother makes it so hard to put myself first and it's so easy to let things go. so that is whats going on in my life. i will be happier once i hit my goal weight and once i can finish school so i can make more money. :O)