i have a little time to myself before olivia wakes up from a nap. i am going to write a small post, throw a load of laundry in, and then jump in the shower before she wakes up. we have had a long day today so far. we woke up this morning, i made her breakfast, played a bit, cleaned my room, put some laundry away, sorted a few clothes, made lunch, and now she's sleeping. i'm trying to get her to stay on one task at a time. she'll ask me to do something with her and then a little while longer she will start something else to do. it makes me tired trying to chase her and being pregnant all day. it would be nice if the snow melted so we could play outside. we plan on planting a garden as soon as the ground gets soft. but since we are having a horrible winter this year we go to the mall all the time so she can play.
last week i was 29 weeks pregnant. i went to the doctor's and had a normal check up. he told me that he wants to see me every two week now. today i am almost 31 weeks pregnant, so i have an appointmet on monday and today is friday. i've been very uncomfortable at night trying to sleep. she is very low and it makes me pee every 10 minutes it seems like. and it's hard to find a comfortable spot with this big belly. i had a dream about sofia last night. i dreamt that she had weird little green eyes.(her father has green eyes) i just hope she looks normal. olivia was a beautiful baby. sometimes biracial babies are a weird mixture of each parent. i really don't want her to have blond hair or red hair. i have this little prayer that i pray every night before i go to sleep. thats when i don't fall asleep too fast.
DEAR GOD, PLEASE BLESS BABY SOFIA
PLEASE LET HER BE HEALTHY FROM THE INSIDE TO THE OUTSIDE
PLEASE LET HER BE BEAUTIFUL FROM THE INDISE TO THE OUTSIDE
PLEASE DON'T LET HER HAVE RED HAIR
PLEASE DON'T LET HER HAVE CROSSED EYES
PLEASE DON'T LET HER HAVE SHORT ARMS
THANK YOU FOR THIS CHILD AND PLEASE LET HER BE SPRITUIAL AND KNOW WHO YOU ARE
and that's the end of my prayer. i pray about her eyes beccause we have a lot of cross eyes people in my family. and i pray about her arms because my hubby's arms look a bit short, not like a dorf but just a tad short. so i pray that she is normal. and i pray that she is a calm person because her sister is very hyper. :)
i guess the last thing that i will write about my 29 weeks is that i found some money in the mall and it made me feel that my bad days are going to be over. my hubby has been laid off of work for a long time now and i feel that has robbed me of my happiness. especially because it made me a bit bitter and unhappy and i didn't enjoy olivia as much as i should have from when she was 7 months until she wass around two. because i was always worring about money. so now i make sure to play with her more, show her that mommy is happy to be her mommy, and that she is special and i'm glad that she is my daughter. i think that i should have been a better mother those days and should have been happier. but i've changed alot and it's a goal everyday to show her that life is beautiful and to enjoy everyday to the fullest.
i am 30 weeks pregnant right now and i don't have too much to say about that. but i'm very excited that she will be here before we know it. i will be very busy with the upcoming months until she is born. olivia has her first dance recital coming up in may. and it's the same weekend that sofia is due so i am hoping that i don't miss anything. she has her first dance pictures coming up in april. we have easter to plan for, the baby shower, and all of her dress rehersals for her recital. so we will be pretty busy. and i have to registure her for preschool at the end of march. i hope there is a spot for her because they have spots for poorer people and since donny is laid off we won't have to pay for this really expensive great preschool. i will post an enrty when i find out she's been accepted... so wish me luck!!!
