BUSY BUSY MONDAY

YESTERDAY WAS A CRAZY BUSY DAY, I WOKE UP SICK TOO FROM BEING SO STRESSED. MY RIGHT EAR IS PLUGGED, I HAVE A COLD, AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF I HAVE A COLD SORE. I ONLY GET COLD SORES WHEN MY BODY IS REALLY RUN DOWN. YESTERDAY I TOOK THE KIDS TO THE PARK, WE HAD TO GO TO THE GROCERY STORE, AND THEN AFTER DINNER WE WENT FOR A WALK. I FOUND AN AMAZING TRAIL TO HIKE VERY CLOSE TO OUR HOUSE. IT'S A WHOLE DIFFERENT WORLD ON THE TRAIL, EVERYTHING IS BEAUTIFUL. OLIVIA HAD A BLAST RIDING HER BIKE. WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GO TO THE PLAYGROUND AGAIN BUT IT GOT DARK SO FAST. I CAN TELL THE FALL IS RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER THE WEATHER IS STARTING TO COOL DOWN. WHEN WE WERE AT THE STORE YESTERDAY, THERE WERE ALREADY HALLOWEEN COSTUMES OUT. olivia and sofia playing at olivia's school playground. the principal requested that parents take the student to the playground to play over the summer to get use to seeing their school. olivia has been coming to the playground for a long time.

walking the trail

stopped to take a quick picture :)

a quick bite before we go to the playground this morning

lazy sunday

i'm going to get in the shower shortly, i'm still in my pajamas and have not showered yet today. i have been cleaning all day, it's so much easier to clean when donny is home. he is taking a nap with the girls but i wanted to post these pictures before i get in. he was holding sofia and i saw the perfect photo, it's the way he was holding her. i quickly grabbed my camera and took these shots.

grass and dog poop

so our grass hasn't been cut in so long that i had to pick up me feet to walk through the grass. we've had three people cut our grass in the past. 1.) Donny's cousin austin 2.) the neighbor's son across the street, 3.) and a semi-professional lawn company that just started their business. out of the three i liked the new company the best. they were very professional and i loved the lines they left in the grass. they even cut the grass around the driveway and made it look perfect. well, i lost the number to the new lawn service so that left donny's cousin austin because the neighbor's son cut the grass too short and burned it up. so austin as been M.I.A. lately and i was desperate, i asked the neighbor's son to cut our grass. i walked over and requested that he cut our grass and that i was going to the store to get some change to pay him. i rushed through the grass sweating and picking up dog poop so the kid didn't step in it. i was highly pissed off because i DO NOT pick up dog poop. that is not my dog and i am not an animal lover. i clean two kids butts when they poop, i do not and i will not ever do it again. i was just desperate to get the yard nice because my next door neighbor always has a nice lawn and i don't want to keep my yard looking a mess. it takes away how nice his lawn looks. as soon as i got home from the store and put the groceries away he was knocking on the door, he asked if it was still okay to cut the grass. i told him that it would be perfect that he cut the grass. i held the money out to pay him and he didn't want to take it until the job was done. i gave it to him anyway and he started cutting the grass right away. i have been cleaning and running around all day. all the laundry is washed and almost put away. i have to get some kid hangers tomorrow to finish the kids clothes. i fed the children, gave them a bath, brushed their teeth, and put them to bed. i didn't get to read a book tonight and it made me feel guilty but i did go over the things olivia and i are supposed to work on this summer for school. she was doing sight words while i was cooking dinner and doing laundry. i let sofia walk around and play in the junk drawer in the kitchen. so everything was calm tonight compared to our afternoon. it was a nightmare, i was on the porch picking up garbage that an animal ripped apart and she locked me out of the house. i put garbage on the porch because i didn't feel like walking through the jungle of grass and forgot about it. i crashed on the couch and donny came in mad because he said the house was mess and there was trash on the porch. LOL when she let me in the house i made her friend go home because of her behavior. she flipped out and started screaming and woke donny up. he woke up screaming, "what the eff is going on"? LOL i told him what happened so he put her in the bed with him and made her take a nap. well i am going to straighten my hair before i go to bed so i can put a messy bun in it. y hair has been a nappy mess so i am stying something new. i will post a picture of it tomorrow. but here is a picture of olivia and sofia after bathtime. :) took these two seperate times...she is just like her big sister LOL

SO TIRED...NO ENERGY

I'VE BEEN SO TIRED THIS WEEK, IT SEEMS AS IF I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH ENERGY TO MAKE IT THROUGH THE DAY. I STILL HAVEN'T FINISHED THE LAUNDRY AND WHEN DONNY CAME IN THIS MORNING HE WAS PISSED SAYING HOW DIRTY IT WAS IN HERE. I SWEAR THAT MAN IS SO ANAL, OUR HOUSE IS SPOTLESS MOST OF THE TIME. IT WAS A LITTLE DIRTY FOR A MINUTE BUT I SAW HOW MUCH IT BOTHERED HIM SO I WOULD RUN AROUND CLEANING LIKE A MAD PERSON. THAT JUST MADE ME STRESSED AND UPTIGHT ALL OF THE TIME. IM STILL SWEEPING LIKE EVERYDAY AND MAKING SURE THE DISHES ARE DONE. I AM ONLY ONE PERSON I CAN'T DO EVERYTHING. IT'S WORSE WHEN WE ARE GONE ALL DAY AND THEN AS SOON AS WE GET HOME OLIVIA'S FRIENDS COME KNOCKING ON THE DOOR. SO I CHANGE SOFIA'S DIAPER, GRAB A BOTTLE OR SNACK FOR HER, AND WATCH OLIVIA PLAY. AND IT'S WORSE IF I HAVEN'T STARTED DINNER BY THAT TIME BECAUSE WE WERE GONE ALL DAY SO DONNY DOESN'T HEAR NOISE WHILE HE IS SLEEPING. LAST NIGHT WE DIDN'T EAT DINNER UNTIL 8:30PM AND I DIDN'T GIVE THE KIDS A BATH. I READ THEM SOME BOOKS, BRUSHED THEIR TEETH, AND PUT THEM TO BED. I MIGHT GO TO THE STORE TODAY TO GET A FEW THINGS BUT WE ARE STAYING HOME FOR MOST OF THE DAY. IT'S HARD FOR ME TO CLEAN AFTER I PUT THEM TO BED BECAUSE I'M SO TIRED I USUALLY JUST SIT ON THE COUCH AND CRASH EVERY NIGHT. ON THE WEEKENDS I LIKE STAYING CLOSE TO HOME BECAUSE WHILE DONNY IS HOME IT'S EASIER FOR ME TO CLEAN. AND THIS IS THE REASON WHY THE HOUSE IS A MESS BECAUSE HE WANTS TO LEAVE THE HOUSE PRACTICALLY ALL DAY. HE IS STARTING TO MAKE ME VERY ANGRY BECAUSE HE EXPECTS ME TO COOK TOO. THERE ISN'T ENOUGH HOURS IN THE DAY FOR ME TO COOK, CLEAN AND STAY GONE ALL DAY. I AM NOT GOING TO START COOKING AT 7PM. AND SOMETIMES WE DON'T GET HOME UNTIL 9PM OR 10PM. HE MUST BE SMOKING DOPE IF HE THINKS IM GOING TO COME IN AND CLEAN AFTER THAT. HE'S NOT BEING REALISTIC AT ALL. LAST NIGHT HE SENT ME A MESSAGE THAT HE HAD TO PICK SOMEHTING UP AND HE NEEDED A LOT OF SLEEP WHICH MEANS HE WANTS ME TO LEAVE SO THE HOUSE ISN'T A MESS. I SWEAR EVERYDAY I AM RUSHING HOME BECAUSE WE STAY GONE ALL DAY UNTIL HE GOES TO WORK. SO AS SOON AS WE GET HOME I AM RUNNING TO GET THE KIDS OUT OF THE CAR AND BAGS OF GROCERIES OR DIAPER BAG. IF I LEAVE STUFF IN THE CAR HE GETS MAD. OK ANY PERSON UNDER THIS PRESSURE WILL JUST SNAP AND I DO. I SNAP ON HIM A LEAST ONCE A WEEK. HE IS ACTING LIKE A CHILD... I WANT, I WANT, I WANT. SO THIS WEEK I HAVE BEEN SO TIRED AND I DON'T CARE IF HE'S UPSET ABOUT THE HOUSE. I GO TO SLEEP AND NOT STRESS ABOUT IT. HE HAS CLEAN CLOTHES BUT HE HAS CERTAIN UNDERWEAR THAT HE WANTS TO WEAR AT WORK. AND WHEN EVERYTHING IS PERFECTLY CLEAN WITH ALL HIS CLOTHES CLEAN IN THE DRAWER AND HUNG UP IN THE CLOSET HE COMPLAINS ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE THATS RIDICULOUS. SO THIS IS WHY I HAVEN'T PUT THE LAUNDRY UP, MY BODY IS ON A STRIKE AND JUST WON'T DO IT. I DIDN'T GO TO COLLEGE TO BE SOMEONES DOOR MAT, I AM NOT THE TYPE OF WOMEN THAT GETS OFF ON PUTTING MY HUSBANDS WANTS AND NEEDS FIRST. YESTERDAY WHILE RUNNING, THE STUPID DOG RAN OUT OF THE DOOR SO I HAD TO CHASE HIM DOWN THE ROAD. SOMETIMES I'M SO STRESSED I DON'T EAT DINNER UNTIL I PUT THE KIDS TO BED OR I DON'T EAT AT ALL. SO INSTEAD OF NOT EATING LATELY I JUST DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THE LAUNDRY. OKAY WELL I GUESS I AM DONE RANTING FOR RIGHT NOW. IM GOING TO GIVE THE GIRLS A BATH NOW INSTEAD OF LATER. SOFIA POORED MILK ALL OVER HER TABLE AND ALL IN HER HAIR. SO HER HAIR IS SMASHED TO HER FACE. I HAVE TO GET SOMETHING FOR DINNER BECAUSE YESTER DAY I WAS RUNNING AND RUNNING, SO I JUST GOT DINNER FOR LAST NIGHT. I TOLD OLIVIA SHE COULDN'T PLAY BUT HER FRIENDS ARE RIGHT NEST TO THE WINDOW COLLECTING ROCKS, SO WILE I AM FOLDING THE LAUNDRY, I AM WATCHING HER PLAY.