tired, stressed, tired

so i haven't been home all week. i've been at my inlaws because our bills got out of hand and our dte and consumers got shut off. we were on payment plans because of the winter bills were so high. they were too high for the size our home and because we never turn on our lights until it is dark because of all the natural light in our house. this shouldn't happen to adults with two children. it's mostly miscommunication between the hubby and i. we speak to each other maybe 20 minutes everyday before he goes to work. so no one was incharge of the bills. but thank god this nightmare will be over tomorrow. both companies are coming over tomorrow to turn everything back on. every sunday we are going to sit down and budget together for the week. sometimes we still live like college kids or newly married people. we stay up all night when we are together because we don't get to see each other during the week. we act like teenagers with no care in the world. we have to be a little more resposible in the future. it has been a nightmare with the girls schedule also. which made olivia act like a monster all week. because of the weather she didn't get to play outside as much and didn't get to burn off much energy at all. i've been a horrible mother with no patience and understanding. when we get home i have to get the girls on a better schedule especially because olivia is going to school soon. i have been going over her numbers, letters, days of the month and week, sight words, making her write her last name and learning her phone number. she knows how to count and she knows numbers when she sees them. she can see a group of objects and knows the number without counting. i'm making her write her numbers as well and for arts and crafts she get to glue numbers 1-15 on a sheet of paper in order. she loves using glue and creating projects. she loves spending time with her cousins especially jessie. they built a fort out of blankets and olivia was in heaven, it was a magical moment for her. i am laying in bed with the window open while there is a cool breeze blowing through the window. i miss my home and my routine. every night when i put the kids to bed i sit on the couch and watch my favorite shows on my dvr. well it's late and i have alot to do tomorrow. tomorrow donny wants me to cash his check so i might take olivia to a little cafe to eat lunch. she loves going out to eat. :)